Saturday, 17 January 2009

Those who can...

So it always seems to happen this way with me. All last week, I had shit loads of revision to do for my exams, but all I wanted to do was write. So I wrote and crammed revision in at the last minute. On Thursday, I had my last exam and all the way through it I was thinking about how much writing I was going to get done in my weeks off before going back to uni.

But guess what? I can't write. I tried yesterday, knowing that if I was in the mood, I would finish my TV pilot for VISION, but I wasn't in said mood, so it didn't get touched. I wrote about half a scene for my zombie movie - the opening, then ended up on facebook replying to people interested in MICHAEL'S RESIGNATION most of the day. Evening came and ate, then watched DEXTER and a couple eps of SUPERNATURAL.

I wasn't tired at midnight, so considered breaking the laptop open and attacking VISION. But I didn't. Instead, I was reduced to watching SCARY MOVIE 4 - one of the worst films ever to be created methinks. The only thing I liked was when Charlie Sheen killed himself. I was thinking "Yes, Charlie Sheen, kill yourself, get out of this terrifyingly bad movie and do something shiny like PLATOON". And die he did. Well, at least someone was spared the pain!

So now I sit here blogging because once again, I can't write anything. After this post, I'm going to break out the beat sheet for the pilot of VISION and try my hardest to write something, while listening to rock.

Can guarantee that tomorrow while I'm at work all day, I'll be in the perfect mood to write, but then on Monday, that will have passed. Maybe I'll just stay up all Sunday night and attack it then.

I know why it happens this way. It's a way of putting off the writing. I never want to do what I'm doing - I'm never happy.

However, if writing is going to be my career, I'll have to learn to write when I'm not in the mood, so this afternoon, my non-writing mood time will be filled with writing.

Maybe I'll go on facebook first.....


Michelle Goode said...

I get like that, too :(

I remember back in the day, working behind the till in the card shop, wanting to do all of my hobbies... Then as soon as I'd get home... kapeesh!

Likewise when I recently had over a week of nothing (aside from clearing out my room) I found it very difficult to sit down and write.

The new job is causing different issues. I'm just getting into the swing of it and it can be pretty tiring. When I get back I watch my usual TV shows then have dinner and then... kapeesh! I really should write but I just can't ever seem to get in the mood. At work, I barely have time to think about anything but what I'm doing.

I really hope my inspiration and energy returns soon... :(

Neil said...

It'll come in the end - it always does. Shop work doesn't exactly stimulate the mind, so leaves a fair bit of time for me to think of ideas.

But your job sounds pretty interesting. Maybe a character with your job or something. Take that character doing exactly what you're doing, then something amazing happens.

There's always some way to work things in.

Doesn't kapeesh just mean 'understand?'? -
"you'll do as I say! Kapeesh?"
"All apart from the kapeesh."

That or another meaning that is.....sure you're not meaning that.

Or is there another meaning that is 'that's it/done' etc???

Michelle Goode said...

Bah I'm just stoopid...

Not sure what it means exactly, I was using it as "nothing" or "zilch".

lol...Silly me... See, my brain just doesn't want to think or speak good English anymore...

Neil said...

Hmmm...well it might mean that as well, but the only 2 meanings I know of are
a) Understand?
b) Something I'm SURE you didn't mean.

Michelle Goode said...

If you're referring to an onomatopoeia-style usage of that word... then LOL!

Neil said...

lol indeed. Lol indeed!